thinking too much?

thanks for making it happen. appreciate your courage. wasnt that difficult afterall right? but something just doenst feel right. i'm still not feeling it. i dont know if it's just me or what. maybe yes, you do show me your love, when we're both alone. but i dun get it why do u have to hide it from others? u still care about him and his feelings? yes, i know u want to be good friends with him, but u dun have to ignore me and sit next to him when we eat. i was lying if i said i wasnt angry just now. how can i not be? its really not easy for a person to trust another once he knows everything. and i'm just trying my best to trust you, but you're not doing your part. i cant do this alone baby. you have to do ur part as well. you have to convince me you really love me and show some actions. words can only go so far. i barely feel any love right now. instead, i feel that you're much closer to him than to me. that's what making me so sad and angry. or maybe u need some more time. ur busy and all this week cos its your bestfriend's birthday. yes i understand. but.. and next week is his birthday. fuck! god knows what u'r planning for him. and chalet is coming. i really do not feel like going. i feel so out of place. i really do not like the feeling. all i want now is to spend time with you like old times. i really love you very much. <3

pls understand my situation baby. i know you don't want to hurt him but what about me? :'(
12/20/2008 08:14:00 PM

goal scored!